who am i...?

Life is strictly to be awesome...

i have wondered me as the reflection of others.. like mirrors....

to find me is to find yourself....

somethings i wish to say were ruined by my words...

the nature is a magic and god is a magician...

the whole beauty of nature made me feel that...

i cant speak it to you, but i can express it in my actions...
Sometimes i think that i am lost... but i am not...
to be lost, you are supposed to know where it is you are supposed to be...
and i am pretty sure that i dont even know that...

i am the person who ran the whole world to find true happiness...
once i thought that happiness comes when we get something that we dont have.... 
but later, those same reasons made me understand the worthiness...
that recognizing and appreciating the things we have is where the real happiness lies....

i am the person once thought that trusting others is the tough one...
but later, those same reasons made me understand the worthiness...
that trusting thyself is the tougher one....

life always gives me surprises....
i always tried so hard to find me....
the ways i went through....
i lost many things... things that are precious than my life...
shredded tears more than a shoulder to hide...
but when i stopped being who i am, i found myself... at peace...

still.. after a lot walked through life.... the same question arouses...
WHO AM I....?

winter is here...

Life is strictly to be awesome...

the best of every seasons is right here....
in one sentence winter is like "cold, cozy nights, warm blankets and hot chocolate"...
but if we go deeper, winter is something real big...
it makes my wishes comes true....
it has been so kind to me...

winter is been known as spring of genius as it teaches many things...
rose in winter shows the strength of love - strongest one survives...
view of snowfall through the window reminds the memories made...
regrets and mistakes - they are the memories made...
trees in winter reminds the honesty as they being the experts in letting things go...

winter teaches an important lesson... nothing burns like cold....
white lips, pale face, snow all around....
winter always shows that there is always a beauty lying under simplicity....

words cant convince anybody... live through it.. and then believe...
winter is awesome....

Life will move on.. but YOU in my heart will never...

Life is strictly to be awesome...

i have never stopped at any place....

i have never met not even myself...

but i have met YOU... YOU dont know how much happiness YOU gave me...

all people i have seen, all places i have been are same to me.. 
but YOU were always different....

i cant show it but YOU are in my heart...

dreams are reappearing to me, no matter how much i brush them away....

sometimes i feel like the dreams which are broken and left behind are taking me away on their wings again...

the moments changes the separation of real and illusion to me....

who knows, maybe the breeze, those illusions will take me to YOUr direction...

everything around me is pushing the thoughts about YOU...
nothing about YOU can never be erase off...
as YOU say, maybe i dont know what YOU are...
but i know what YOU are not... even if YOU never admit it also....
I LOVE YOU....

our own world...me and you...

Life is strictly to be awesome...

this is our world... 

only ours... you and me...

no people... no rules...

no stopping.... no limits...

in this world we can let go of everything.....

after entering in this world i wont be able to live outside...

i can only stay here, forever....

you are here in this world.... just hold me to your embrace....

i have given myself to you... no barriers remains b/w us...

for you i have finally got me in the way like i am...

i'm closer to u than your feelings closer to you...

in this world we can wander from where ever to where ever without reason....

without asking anyone...

the life we have ever dreamt of.... the life we have ever flown away...

the world is within us....

the world, our world, cannot be let go...

our world is waiting for us... us to be get together....

let us rejoin again.... in our world.... 

I LOVE YOU.....

I Love You....

Life is strictly to be awesome...

i love that u know me..
i love the way u call out my name...
i love the way u want to tell me things...
i love ur cute smile and the way u do it...
i love the friendly flirting b/w us...
i love the way we find the same jokes and wavelength around...
i love our weird conversations...
i love the way u get angry on me....
i love the way u fight with me...
i love that u love i care, even if its not the care u want...
i love that u never hated the embarrassments with me...
i love the way ur eyes light up when u laugh...
i love that im ur favorite...
i love the way our hands fits perfectly...
i love the long walks....
i love that u make me do that cliche sigh...
i love how u make me burst into fits of laughter after everything u do, coz u really r that funny to me...
i love how u trust me...
i love how u never want me to go away...
i love that im ur only best friend...
i love that i was able to know and love you more than any other person in the universe...
I love the way u became the best thing that ever happened in my life...

last but not least,
I LOVE YOU the way u r and the way im when im with u...

there is a life after everything... but where it leads...?

Life is strictly to be awesome...

i always wasted my life on what could have been....... i always think about the things i should have done or said after it is over...... i know i am not unique or different in this world.. but i always wanted to be unique... i always wanted to be different... i always wanted to be the keeper of secrets... to be the companion to the perfect....
i waited around for something that might not happen in my entire life..... and now when the time comes to prove that it will never happen, its getting harder and harder to give up...... is it my madness or myself denying the fact that it was never about me at the very first place......?

noone ever stopped living by the things that happened in the past... then y cant i do the same....?

life never give second chances.... i never believed in it coz second chances will never be like the first.. there will come limitations and boundaries... if it was true love between two souls, it cannot be stopped the love.. only they can do is to learn how to live without them....

i was too late for everything in life... to share the secret... to express my feelings.... i even dint got time to regret about what im gonna lose..... i cant go back to the loneliness where i was once.....

the same life taught me the fact that never give up on love coz there is always someone who love u, even if that someone is not what u were hoping for..... after all, life is just simple as it seems... but we always got ourselves into its maximum complication....
thats what we r, huh...? weirdos.... :-)

Edge of Life

Life is strictly to be awesome...

i dont know what to do now... i always made my life exciting... i myself surprised my whole life... at a point where i see the hope of my life gets converging, i used to change it..as to make my life alive... but one day, a long time ago, i set my destination, a constant destination for my entire life.... i was not sure why i did that... i was not sure why i chose it... i tried many times to diverge from it... i even tried to destroy the whole concept of my world... still i couldnt get away from my dreams... from that day i was travelling with it... i modified my world with that as a base... i run down my rules of life... i rewrote my history of life.... i even try to change me for that until i found out changing myself changes everything.... i was at right direction, always... but from that day, i walked in a new way... the path noone have ever walked.... the path where noone ever see the wild imaginations, dreams of mine....

i was always smart enough not to break but bend the rules of nature for humans..... i always knew that the perfect way to hide the truth in plain sight was to reveal some other truths with the thin layer of lies.....

but now i am gonna lose what i saw.... it was bound to happen.. what i saw was impossible in this world... but i still believes in it... but as it goes away from me, i dont know what im gonna do next...coz i dnt have any other to see or to set... i even dnt knw how to blend in to this world as i always did....

all i can do now is to stop the life and sink on the memories i always locked up precious......

Changes..

Life is strictly to be awesome...

All of us experience change in our lives. Change is the one constant in our lives. There are changes that we look forward to and change that we fear. However, one thing is for sure. Things will not stay the same no matter how much we would like them too. When a life change occurs, we have two choices in how to respond. We can despair that a change has come and assume that things will be worse, or we can look with excitement at the new possibilities that the change presents.

But there is another way to thrive in life of changes. Living the crazy life now makes a way more better sense than worrying about the future. Future is the one thing that leads to the change which can change the life in a whole new direction.

Always welcome the changes in the full cherish coz if it is ought to happen, it will happen..no matter what.... 

there comes a point in our lives when we have to stop fooling ourselves into thinking life's gonna be the way we want to be... start seeing things for how they really are....

This is all i know...

Love is what love like...

    I dont know whether you are the one i desire.... 

    or the one i love...

this is all i know...i just ask for you...

this is all i believe in...that i need you....

fame, money, position, luxuries, etc cannot give divinity...

nothing can give the freedom from loneliness... 

other than getting into ur dreams...

where no one other than me can see them...

I just want to be right aside you...

i dnt knw whether its right or daring...

I just knows that you are in my heart, my life and in my dreams..

I just knows that i always wanna be with you..

in ur happiness.. pain... each and every moment...

I dont know whether you feel the same...

all i know is that this is my destiny - U & ME...

All i know is that i am in deep love with you..

i just know that i am afraid of losing you...

I am not perfect..

All i know is that i am perfect for you..

All i know is that i can make you happy for my lifetime...

and all i can say is that I LOVE YOU...

Rest i will prove and show by my life...

Love...? Lets have a review....

Life is strictly to be awesome...

lets go back to the college days... its all about love....

love..pyaar...its as much as a part of college as bunking, unpaid canteen bills, proxy or sleeping in class, chit chats behind the trees......

so lets talk about love....the unpreventable TRUE LOVE..

as a thought do u really think about the love roaming around today..? is that real love...? lets make a list about that... for that lets rewind the time a little more back... the age before the internet comes b/w the real world...

we have seen love stories that began right here at the college and still going strong..
some people fall in love at first sight..
some took two-three years to realize their feelings..
some blurted their feelings out at the first chances they got & some kept their emotions to themselves, they just let their eyes do all the talking..
back then they knew how to love..they figured out how to voice and express the matters of the heart...
that's why some love stories, are forever...
have you ever thought why older days were full of those moments of love that said above and now its too rare, like in the edge of distinct...?
because there was no internet in those days...no SMS - short messaging service...
in fact how would u say those thousands of things that were dying to be articulated...?
a smiley doesn't have the same effect a real smile has when shared between two eager faces across the length of a classroom...

Earlier one hide from teachers, parents,and even other friends whilst in the throes of romance..
but today we end up pursuing love whilst hiding from each other...
instead of hiding behind library shelves and trees like old generation did, today we can face each other but we yet choose to hide behind computer screens...
Love happens real fast like the speed of an internet connection and logout equally easily..
I am surprised sometimes, i mean think about it..how can you actually fall in love with a display picture or clever bio line..?
You fall in love with a living, breathing, fighting, angry, complex, complicated, sweet, idiotic, pretty amazing girl....
Love wont work out with a simple friendship request..for it to work one would have to look into her eyes and walk towards her..go down on one knee and..speak the truth....
"You are in my heart, my life and in my dreams...you are the one who'l be in my life forever.. i could not stop loving you than i could not stop breathing...

i am hopelessly, irretrievably in love with you...more than you knows...."
just say her name and say "i love you"......
Friends, we can never ever feel like the same way as the above from the virtual world...
Love is a greatest feeling that even amazing lines with awesome background image cant express 1% of the feeling...
it can be expressed face to face only...
it is felt by the heart...
the honesty and trust will only make up in real world....
so go outside, explore, find your true love from that crowd, love her/him like no one has never loved someone that much....

Thank you guys for reading the whole... The above is a part of me, part from my life, and a part from the favorite movie i saw....
have a great life my dear friends... :-)

Destination is thus defined...

when the travel is to the destination, lots of things are to be done..

i alwayz thinks of different options..

first i thought of planning each steps..

after i thought of a surprise take off..

atlast i reached nowhere..

so i went to a warm sleep..

i saw a dream... in the dream i was walking on a long straight road..

there was nothing & nothing at all on the road except my shadow..

but there was no light also, i wondered how am i seeing my shadow... or was that another person.. actually i don't remember it clearly now.. The path was full of dark, i felt too cold also...

after a long time at the end of the road i saw a light.. it was a red light..reddish one..the light was coming too fast..or was i running towards it...?

not sure... when i was gonna touch it,wow, it got disappeared...

again darkness...but i felt something extra more & more deeper..

i don't know how to explain that feeling..

it was like...ah yes, when we are jumping from a very high bridge our heart will be in an immense depth filled with something,rite...? I felt the same in my dream that moment..it was increasing & increasing...i began to run towards the nowhere darkness...

suddenly something went pass by..it was whitish..i turn back, yes it is white & it was going away...i began to run towards it...

when i was gonna touch that, again it disappeared .. its like frustrating..but in dreams we cant felt frustration,rite..?

at the same time i saw that whitish and reddish ones in different places...sometimes like north and south..sometimes near..sometimes coming towards me & going back.. at a point of time it started to blink in a same point... so i slowly moved towards it..

i was gonna touch reddish but suddenly i touched white... 

on a sudden somebody grabbed me into the white...

all on a sudden darkness faded..now its all white around...

it was more like a room than a road.. 

a room with no door..maybe the door is hidden..anyway i didn't see a door...i heard something..when i turned, i saw a line, it was brown..then i saw another line near that..when it goes on, there i saw a drawing..it was like an invisible man drawing a picture..when the drawing was finished, i looked into it.. it was a girl's photo..not that short but a bit fatty and not that fatty...but the picture was like she was turned to the other side..

suddenly another sound..there i saw another picture..it was a rectangle, a big rectangle..no no..it was a door...it had a lock..i saw two hand prints on the door..it was reddish..or bloody hands...?

when i turned to see the girl's photo, it was not there..i heard a knocking sound, the door slowly opened...it was all dark on the other side..suddenly the whole room went on fire..but i dint felt heat..through the flames i saw the girl calling for help..face was not clear but her eyes,ho,it was like..so beautiful..filled with fear...

..fear of burning down..?no..it was something else..something too deep..what is it..?suddenly from nowhere there's rain...when i saw i was in a mountain top..i saw her sitting under a shade..she was playing something alone..no someone is with her..but i cant see..

when i saw i was on a sea shore..I've never been here before..i don't remember this place..but i saw the girl there..she was kinda lost...searching for something...she was searching and searching...at last she got tired and fell on the sand & started crying...i began to move towards her..but a huge tide came over me..when i saw, i was in a park..there i saw she sitting alone..her friends were calling her for something..but she ignores them..when i went near her, she was looking at something in her hand..it was a photo..i eagerly went to see it..suddenly someone grabs me and i was like flying..when i saw i was in a road..either sides was full of trees...there i saw the girl..

..she seems happy..she was laughing..she was with her friends..she had a rose in her hand..before they stood up and went, i saw the girl keeping something in the bench and a rose near it..

when they went, i move towards to see what that was...it seems like a photo..when i move towards more, i was like shocked..or can we felt shock in dream...? it was my photo....!!!! i turned and ran to see the girl..but she was nowhere...suddenly a big whitish light came towards me...

BOOM...i opened my eyes..it took 5 minutes for me to understand that it was a dream....

i was full of sweat still my ac was running..!!

what was this dream..?

is that was some illusions..?or any connections to reality(except my death..)...?

slowly i made my own meaning to the dream and it was like this..

"death is our final destination..what matters in life is not the destination..its the path towards it...finding true love..its the wonderful path..."

it was a great dream i ever had...

the end...